Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear Catherine....
Happy Birthday to youuuuu..

So here you go kiddo...
Today is your day...
Full of hope and promises...
May the Lord guide you and protect you always...
May you remember to reach for the stars...

We love you dearly...
Stay safe ...

Love
Your family

My heart Breaks

This week-end was a hard one...
Last night was horrible...
I struggle to understand...
I struggle to be at peace...
I worry for my children...
I love them more then they will ever know...
I struggle on how to let go...
I am fearful for their future...my future with them...
I am scared to sleep...they memories come flooding in...
I am scared to talk...for fear of disappointing...

I do not know how to be...

I only know to love them...
To ask them for forgiveness...
I only know right now that the only thing I can do is to get on my knees...big time!!!!

The prodigal son returned...he returned a man...his heart bigger then I ever seen...
Oh how I could have never imagined his heart being this big...
How he too...has seen...and now understands...and fears for his beloved sister...

So I will pray...the only thing I can do is pray...
I will also pray that God will give this mother's heart some peace so she can sleep...

I love you Catherine...and I will always love you no matter what!
I will always be here for you no matter where I live...
I am only but a heart beat away...

Maman...xoxoox

And the Winner is....

Drum roll please....

A very carefully skilled 5 year old Gabriel picked a name out of hat....

and Tyler is who he picked!!!

Congrats Tyler...

Bubble blowing here we come...

Contest Officially Closed

Today two master bubble blowers will draw a winner from a hat...

Stay tuned!

This is what you get....

Remember the little contest that is supposed to end at Midnight tonight...well...
May be not...after all it is my contest...
This is what you will get...2 little bubble blowing bottles...

Now these are no ordinary bubble bottles...they are the best!...at least in my house...
Summer time for my boys means gallons of bubble liquid in every corner of our back yard and home..
OK...may be not that extreme...but I am sure you get the point...
The little bubble blowing bottles are the best...seriously...I even let the boys blow bubbles while we are in the van and I am driving...

What is the best...well first and foremost...the are non spill!!!...yup you read that right...non spill...and they blow perfect and hold perfectly for those chubby little hands...

So come on...don't be afraid...leave a comment...and if your brave enough...look at the picture below and try to name that picture...
Either way you are entered in the contest...

Contest closes for sure tomorrow ( Saturday at midnight)
After all it is summer and what is summer without blowing bubbles...
and no need to even have children....these are fun to blow for all ages..

Name this Picture

May be some summer fun in order...
Name this picture...yes, this is a little contest...
What is the prize...not sure but it will be something summery...
So ...come on people...some of you have yet to comment...
Be the winner of naming this picture and you could be the winner...

Contest closes Friday at midnight!

Look who is 4 today...

Isn't he just the cutest little 4 year old!

Today Paul is 4 years old...

Born on this date four years ago after a wonderful labor ...
He was born in a hospital but if we would have waited 20 more minutes he would have been born at home...
Born to the sound of praise music and dimmed lights our little one made his appearance into the loving hands of our midwife...it was a glorious day... and one that I will always cherish...

Paul's weigh gain was slow...as an infant he was so little...he was cuddly and loved his family...
By the time he was around 2 years old he was doing and meeting all his milestone just as any other little boy...
but slowly and surely...things started disappearing... first his speech...he could no longer put out 2 word sentences...he would go months without even putting two words together...

He no longer would sleep his nights....potty training was out the window...he developed anxiety issues...sensory issues...then came food interference and sensitivity...Ticks appeared ...and then full body ticks made there way into his little body...his demeanor totally changed and the little boy we knew all but disappeared....stuck somewhere in his head...

Making eye contact a thing of the past....it was heart wrenching watching my little boy vanish somewhere in his head...
After many appointments and testing our little Paul was diagnosed with Autism .
He also has Celiac disease, has an anxiety disorder and is of course behind academically...

But oh....how Paul has come a long long way these last several months...with some intensive speech therapy, behavior therapy we see a new little boy emerging...a little boy who knows how to punch his brother ( he is a boy after all) A little boy who loves to have his daddy read him books...a little boy who cuddles with his mommy and sticks to her like glue...

I wouldn't have it any other way...living with a child with autism is not an easy life...but God granted me this little boy ...and we love him dearly...

Today is Paul's special day....
A day for us to celebrate his life...
A day to love on him...make him feel special ( we do this everyday) ...and to treat him with a big chocolate cake and birthday hat...
Those are the things he asks for...a birthday cake and a birthday hat...

So Happy Birthday my little one...
How I cherish every single day with you....you make me a better person....
You teach me so much about love and acceptance...
We are proud of you buddy...keep plugging along...

Love Mommy, Daddy, Gabriel and Catherine...xooxoxo